Trying to understand why things are so hard

Well today has been an interesting day. I was in a car accident and at the point that my head started to spin, I immediately remembered that God is so good to me. My friends come when I call them. My boyfriend was coming to the hospital if they were going to admit me,because he has finals today, and I need him to do well and move to the next level so he can graduate. It is funny praying will sure give you clarity about situations. I am in love with a man, that isn't sure how to communicate with me. I truly feel like he loves me, but is afraid of it. Why is it so darn hard?